Thought I'd give a review on some new products I've tried recently. :D
Being a HUGE coconut fan, I tried the new, limited edition Coconut Twix candy bar.
Twenty-eight years ago my mom past away, and although I've shared this story before, some of you might not have read it. Of course my feelings of missing her are the same.
My mom had been hospitalized for about a month. She went into the hospital the day after I graduated from high school. When my mom was a kid she had rheumatic fever. It had damaged her heart.
Back in January of '83, my mom had gone to the dentist to have some dental work done. I'm not sure if she didn't tell the dentist she had heart problems or not. My mom got the flu soon after that and never got better. Her fingernails started getting really thick and curling over. (the doctor called it clubbing) She went to the doctor around April. I was with her, I had an ear infection. When the doctor examined my mom I could see something was wrong, from the doctor's face. He gave my mom medicine. It just got worse. The doctor admitted her into the hospital. They treated her for a month. She came home on the 29th of June. My sister had gone to get her. I was at work. My dad didn't even know my mom had been released. After my sister got home she went to work.
My brother #1 made my mom a grilled cheese sandwich with sliced pickles. Around 4 o'clock my brother #2 called me into my mom's room, telling me there's something wrong with mom. I went in. My mom was mumbling something about needing to go to the bathroom. I went over to help her. My dad is entering the house around this time. I tell my mom I'm there to help her get up. She then was saying, no, no...At the time I didn't know what was going on...my mom started going into convulsions. I heard my dad and told him something's wrong with mom...he's confused, not knowing my mom had been released from the hospital. Someone went and got the neighbor. The ambulance was on it's way. I went to go get my sister from work. We were to meet my dad at the house and then go to the hospital.
We all get to the hospital. We ask how my mom was doing. They reassured us she was fine. We wait. We wait some more. A doctor calls us to an office. He introduces himself shakes my dad's hand and says, "I'm sorry, but your wife is dead" SHOCK, DISBELIEF...what happened? why? CONFUSION...
Later we found out that my mom had gotten an infection from the dental work. This caused pericarditis (an infection of the lining of the heart). My mom died because she was weak and had aspirated (choked internally)
We also found out that the ambulance that was carrying my mom to the hospital broke down and they had to wait for another one to arrive.
Would all that make any difference? I have no idea.
I miss my mom...I miss her. I think I miss her more and more every year. It seems to get more difficult instead of easier.
I wonder things like would she like the choices I made in my life. Would she like my husband? Would she enjoy being a grandmother? What kind of relationship would we have? would we be more like mother/daughter or friends? What would we spend our time together doing?
Did my mom know the LORD? I really don't know. I don't know if I'll see her again someday and that really hurts. Maybe that's why it gets tougher and tougher each year.
I miss you and love you, Mom.
Probably most of you have seen these pictures on my FB. Yes, I have wonderful friends, for the most part, that talked me back into going over to FB, not to mention I was extra emotional last week...if you know what I mean....
We went to Cadillac Ranch the other day. It was so unbelieveably hot. Of course everyday seems hot because of spending the last 2 years up north!
I have a friend going through a major deal in her life. When I found out, I was ashamed of myself for whining about having to move again. I apologized to my friend. My friend replied with something so elegant and graceful:
Bobbi, hard for anyone is "tailored" to each of us. Your hard is no less important, no less painful, no less of a struggle than my version of hard.
Your sharing your hurt and stress is actually a blessing. It gives me a chance to be there for you, if I can. Gets me out of my own little world a little bit, and I am grateful for distraction at this point, let me tell you!
By the way, I think anyone who minimizes someone else's "hard" is out of touch with their own...or has "issues" when it comes to "hard." ;'DI am so blessed to call this person a friend! She's validated my hurts, and blessed me with her kindness. Thank you my friend. I love you and I'm praying for you.
I haven't posted one of these in ages.
On a side note, we made it to the Amarillo area. sigh~ We don't even know if we ACTUALLY have a job here. LONG story. Time will tell.
I left Facebook. It was something I already had been planning to do, but after the other day, I decided I had enough. I was really, really hurt by some of my friends. I know we aren't suppose to live by our feelings, but I really just needed encouragement the other day, and instead I felt judged, misunderstood, and they were giving me advice on stuff they have NO (completely none) understanding about!
My family and I live in an RV. We do it because we have to go where the work is, not to mention it's how we keep our family together. Our house is currently leased out. We might not even get to move back in. We could be facing foreclosure. The bank said they would refinance the note, and then never did anything about it, even after we did everything we were suppose to do. They said, wait and don't make anymore payments, after they decided we needed to pay over $5000 a month, for 6 months! That was several months ago. That's just part of the story....
Then "friends" on FB say, "time for a change hun" and "set daily goals...."
SERIOUSLY???? SET DAILY GOALS???? Do YOU know what it's like to live in an RV and not know from day to day where you'll be and what you'll be doing? some how I SERIOUSLY doubt it!!! What can I change? I have had a fairly great attitude about "my adventures" over the past 10+ years, but now I'm tired. I'm stressed....and now I'm hurt!
The only daily goals I can set are spiritual goals, and physical goals of what I eat, time I get up, doing laundry, making dinner. I can not plan anything....EVER!!!!
All I wanted was someone to say it's okay, it will get better. I didn't need or want your advice on life...since you obviously don't get mine!!! I was extremely hurt by that, so I left FB, and I don't plan on going back. And I seriously doubt the person that said that will even see this. And if she does, well then maybe that's a good thing. I don't want to mention names, I don't want to be mean, but I am extremely hurt by this situation. :(
I know many people don't understand. At this point it probably doesn't even matter. :(
For those of you that have been praying, I ask that you continue to do so. I really appreciate not only your prayers, but your words of encouragement.
I received one of the sweetest words of encouragement the other day from my friend, BK. I surely hope she doesn't mind me sharing it.
Okay, my beautiful friend
You're sounding pretty frantic and I just wanted to let you know that I love you and am praying for you. I can't even imagine how deeply weary you must be of the constant change. I don't have any wise words for you but I DO want you to know that I think you're amazing, even when you're falling apart. And it's okay.
big hugs to you, Bobbi ((((((((((((((((((((((((Bobbi))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
love ya,bk
Well...The saga continues.
Instead of KC, we are headed to Amarillo in the morning.
Today, dh went to NM with the new/old boss to do a walk down at a job site. It gave him something to do for the day.
After posting, and dh got back with the new tires, we were headed to the tire place to have them check the other tires. On the way over there, the boss from KC called and asked dh what happened in the meeting. Dh really isn't sure why the guy did what he did. He has some thoughts on it, but I'll skip on explaining those. Then the boss asked if dh would mind going to Amarillo. Dh said, "Nope, as long as I get to keep working." So the um "adventure" continues.
Nope....I have to have a life of "ADVENTURE" or most people would probably call it life's mishaps....
First of all, DD did find a place to live until the end of July. She was at work Thursday night, and I was hanging out in the Bistro section. A co-worker of her's walked by as she was working in Starbucks. I happened to be over there chatting with her at the time. She asked him if he knew anyone looking for a roommate or had an apartment avaliable. He said his sister was trying to sublease her apartment. To make a long story short, it all worked out and dd is still in KS.
Now for the continuing saga of my great adventures....
We left KS yesterday morning around 5:30. It's a 12 hour drive to Midland from there. We had been on the road approximately an hour before the "adventures" begin. sigh~
We had a blowout outside of Topeka. We got it changed. Back on the road. DH informs me that we are going to go to Dallas to meet some friends for lunch.
Uh...honey, we've been up since 3:45 am. We've had a blowout. Dallas is 2 hours out of the way. Then there will be dinner and visiting time. So the 8 hours we had still to go (from the destination at time DH told me about Dallas visit) now we have at least 12 hours more to go!!!! UGH!
After the visit in Dallas, we had 6 hours to go. We traveled 2 of the 6 and were totally pooped out. DH talked to his supernice boss. Boss said no worries, be careful, etc.
We stopped in Ranger, TX at an RV park. Spent the night. On the road by 7:30. Stop in Big Spring for lunch. On the road 30 minutes or less....ANOTHER BLOWOUT!!!! This time no spare. Midland about 30 minutes away. DH and DS take tires to get replacements. $300! YIKES!!!
While waiting to get tires mounted on rims, and as I am typing this....DH goes to office and meets the boss and the client. After the meeting I get a call from DH. The client doesn't want DH on the project, SO after all this "ADVENTURE", we are now heading back to KS in a few days. DH is going to NM to do a walkdown tomorrow with the new/old boss. DH still has a job in the KC office, though. That's certainly a plus! (Thank YOU, LORD!) and the company is paying for all the expenses, minus the tires.
I wonder if I can have my job back at the park? ;)
The house deal fell through. :( The owner decided he didn't want to owner finance or lease. Not good for us, because DH is suppose to start work in Midland on Monday. Now we don't have a place for oldest dd. We have to leave our stuff in storage-spread all across the country. :( We have no idea how long we will be gone. This really cause a problem because dd works here after months of searching for a job-is she suppose to drop her job only for us to be gone a few days, weeks, months?
Thanks all for praying. I've kinda come to the conclusion over the past 2-3 years it doesn't matter....GOD's will is done either way and we can't change that.
Dh started a new job today in KC. We will at some point be going to Midland for him to solidify the relationship with the client and work on the project. We could be there six months to a year, then dh would return to work out of the office in KC.
In the meantime, Doodles plans on staying here to go to Beauty school to become a nail tech....eventually wanting to own a salon....and working at the grocery store and Starbucks (inside the grocery store).
We need to find her a place to live. We'll of course be taking the RV with us. We found a cute little 3 bedroom/2 bathroom house, on the outskirts of town, on 10 acres. DH spoke to the owner about owner financing or leasing. Hopefully he will agree to one or the other. Doodles would have a place to live, we could finally pull our stuff out of storage, and have a place to call home when we return to KC. So prayers would be appreciated that we have supernatural favor in the matter. Thanks!
Last week we met my sister in St. Louis. She had flown to NY to visit some of our family and then flew down to St. Louis to meet up with us and so we all could meet some friends that we've known since 1972(?).
Of course the trip started off adventurous, needless to say. First we needed to get new license plates for the camper. That in itself is a story. sigh~
In KS, you have to have your RV inspected before you can get a plate. (they have to make sure it's the same vin number. It's not the kind of inspection to make sure the lights are working, etc)
So the day we were off to do the inspection, DH went to connect the 5th wheel to the truck. The front stands to the 5th wheel somehow gave, and the camper came crashing down on the bed sides of the truck, leaving huge dents on both sides of the bed of the truck and messing up some of the RV.
We got down to the inspection place in the nick of time, then had to go to the courthouse to get the plates. Of course the people at the courthouse didn't give me all the information I needed and the drama continues.
So after an all day affair on and off at the courthouse we had our plates. (I'll save you the drama)
We stayed in the RV in a KOA. Dh bought tickets to a Cardinals game and season passes to Six Flags ($10 more for a season pass than a one day pass, and good at all the Six Flag parks).
My sister flew in on Thursday, her birthday, the second. We picked her up at the airport, went out for breakfast, went back to the RV for a nap, then off to the ball game.
When we got to downtown STL, I was driving, DH was telling me where to park. He'd already purchased tickets for the game and parking online. So we are hunting for the parking lot we are suppose to park in. We went to three different parking lots, and none of them were correct. Somehow my sister asked for the receipt from DH. She looked at the receipt and said, "Um, this parking is for the first, not tonight. So are these tickets." My heart sank. DH looked at the recipt, printed off the internet. His heart sank. He covered his face with his hands and said, "I can't believe I put the wrong date in." Oldest DD said, "Daddy, go to the front office and explain what happened. Maybe they can fix it." Of course the receipt said, "NO REFUNDS. NO EXCHANGES." DH said, "Yeah, I'll go talk to them, maybe they can do something." DD said, "Let's pray first" So we prayed and asked GOD to work something out. We dropped DH off and we drove around, waiting.
While we were driving, all I could think about was the $200+ that would be wasted. I prayed, asking the LORD to work it out somehow. I was literally sick to my stomach. I sent out a prayer request to my friends on Facebook, saying something like, "Prayers for supernatural favor needed now."
After about 10 minutes, DH called and said, "You'll never believe this. I explained the situation and they gave us field box tickets. These are better than what we paid for. Come and park near the first parking spot we went to. I'll tell you all about it when you guys get here. Call me then."
My heart leaped. I whispered and prayer of thanksgiving to the LORD and explained the situation to everyone and we all were thankful.
We parked and called DH. When we got to him, he had such a joyful look on his face. He looked like a little boy. It was so very cute. ;)
He said he explained to the lady that we came in for the ballgame for tonight and somehow he accidently ordered the tickets for the first. (and we still truly don't know how he did that.) He explained we drove in to meet my sister from KC, KS, who flew in from out of town, to see the game for her birthday, and how it was a lot of money that was going to be wasted, was there anything she could do. She said, "Let me go speak to my manager, I'll be back in a few minutes sir." When she came back, probably after looking to see if we used our tickets for the previous night, and checking with her manager, she said, "My manager said to give you 6 tickets in a good section. We can't give you your same spot from last night, but we can find something." DH said, "No ma'am, I understand. Just something, even blechers seat will be fine. It was my mistake." They ended up giving us Field box tickets which costs $77 each! The tickets we paid for were like $18 each. What a MAJOR BLESSING!!!!
Although I'm not a Giants fan or a Cardinals fan, we cheered on the Cardinals that night, because they were so very kind to us. They lost 12-7. :(
What a great story of GOD's faithfulness, even though I've been so distant to Him.
Thank YOU again, LORD. :)
